I guess today is a slightly more emotional post, because something was said to me that hit really close to home. That was someone calling me a nervous nelly. Now this was in relation to my work, and then it got me thinking. For one what even possesses people to say these kinds of things to others? And secondly why is it always said and seen as a bad thing?
Yes, when customers complain all the time about the work that I am doing, because hell yeah I take a lot of pride in what I do. And tbh it sometimes feels like my business so when it fails I feel it, I feel that it fails and I take it personally. Because simply it is hard not to, I spend a lot of hours and time in to trying to make the business as great as possible and it has a piece of my heart. So when customers are degrading the business and then degrading me personally, yes I feel it. I feel it because I can’t stand up for myself. Because I have to side with them. And because they know this yet still try and be rude anyway. What happened to a little bit of kindness?
And since, when was been sensitive ever a bad thing like I feel so much for other people, and because at the end of the day I am a perfectionist. I always plan for things to be as perfect as possible. So when they are not? It can at times just be a really hard pill to swallow. That sometimes things just don’t go your way. That sometimes your sensitivity others will see as your weakness. That you being kind and nice to others, people will try to take advantage of it. That at the end of the day people can just simply be assholes and it has nothing to do with you. There is nothing you could have done better or worse to have changed their mind. That in itself can be hard to deal with, that at the end of the day it is out of your control and has nothing to do with you.
So, yes maybe I am a bit of nervous nelly, but it makes me, me. Maybe, I do give into people instead of standing up for myself. But it is because I see no point. And hell maybe I am a little too sensitive and take things to heart, but that is just me. And people like me are needed in this world. So you know what I am owning my nervous nelly.
You should own yours too.