Well, I have seriously just had some kind of epiphany in the last day or so. First off, to be completely honest I really had not been that happy with one of my jobs, it is pretty much a drag to go there and I really do not like going. You know when you have just reached that place in one of your jobs when you know in your heart it is time to leave. I have always said that about this job in particular and I have never really left it because something in me always wanted to stay there for a little longer. But then suddenly, I just came to the realisation that it really is not for me. And as individuals we are in charge of our own happiness. So I decided to take charge of mine, so I am dedicating my time to finding myself a job that will suit my needs for this moment. Even if that means I will have to apply to hundreds of jobs honestly I will do it. Because, life really is too precious to be stressing out or been unhappy about where you are, when you can simply just change it.
Don’t think this thought process all came easily to me though. I have spent countless hours making excuses for myself and telling myself, that it is way to much effort to change jobs or they are all the same. When the reality of it is, you never know and sometimes you just need a little courage to take that step.
In addition, as we are well aware because I keep talking about it I absolutely am in love with Hawaii, and ever since I have come back I have made it my mission to try and move over there for at least a year, and see what happens to me from there. So I have, spent countless hours trying to figure out how I can get a visa to go over to Hawaii, and I kept on hitting roadblocks. There was a point where honestly I didn’t even know if it was possible that it was even going to work out. But luckily, I had come across a certain visa called a J-1 visa and a lot of companies that do a 12 month work and travel. Which I didn’t even know if I was eligible for it since I am already taking a gap year form university this year. And I, for some reason heard you were only able to take a maximum of one year off uni before having to go back. However, I just looked on my universities website and it says I can take a maximum of two years off university which makes me eligible for the visa. I know this is what I am meant to be doing because it makes me so incredibly happy to think about and even gets me a little giddy inside.
I am so incredibly happy about this, because I feel like I am really beginning to find my passion and who I want to be. I absolutely love travelling more than anything. And I think it took my life to be turned upside down in order for me to find it. So right now especially if you are going through a hard time and see no light at the end of the tunnel. Just know that there is a reason you are going through hell right now. You must go through hell to get to paradise.