It has been such a long time since I have written on here, and I am kicking myself as to how I have waited so long. The thing is writing on here, even if no one is going to read it makes me soooo happy, just because it is a place where I release a lot of my ideas and just write. And, I absolutely love writing. Tonight I was thinking how, I still haven’t made my year, really my year yet. I honestly have yet to go out of my comfort zone, and I am still doing the same old thing I always do. Tonight I was particularly stressed about what I was going to do next year. Which is sooo crazy considering how this year only just started, but I was already stressing about the direction my life was going in.
But at the same time I am a huge believer in things happen for a reason, like there is a reason why my life is going the way it is now. Because something great is going to happen, but you know because I haven’t reached a certain level of success yet, I have just somehow gotten myself into the thought pattern of not been content enough with where I am at. At this point in my life I am even able to pay my own rent, which makes me so lucky because some people aren’t even in that position. But, I believe everyone as some point feels this discontent. I think it comes from when you have lots of big dreams you just want to achieve and you can’t get there immediately. Because, the truth is as much as we all hate it but all good things take a lot of time, and success doesn’t just happen overnight. In many cases, it is the small milestones along the way to reaching that success that is really important.
I also, reckon I often feel quite discontent, because I often stop doing the things I enjoy, which sounds crazy I know. And often when people say this I am just like well then do what you enjoy. But sometimes it is the responsibilities in life that take over and you fail to actually do what you enjoy.
As I stated earlier, writing in this blog is what makes me truly happy, it just lets me get my feelings out, in ways I don’t think I would be able to do on any other platform. I am feeling discontent, maybe because I am not doing anything I enjoy and therefore maybe I feel as if i am not doing anything productive with my time.
What are your thoughts?